[Fan Account] Jung Min shed buckets of tears

This translation of happiebb on LoveKimHyunJoong is something that I just have to share in my blog. While reading it I can't help not to cry as well. I've been wondering what made our tough man, Jung Min, cried a lot today. In Encore, he didn't cry at all. I am really worried and want to know what made him cry.

Alright, I confess I cried buckets of tears last Monday in Seoul. Won't tell why but something really made me cry. But after reading some of the things that the members of SS501 said today I think that I won't be crying that much again. Crossing my fingers and toes. But still I want to know what's troubling Jung Min.

Thanks to happiebb and to LoveKimHyunJoong for this translation.

Btw, if there's anyone who can share more fan accounts PLEASE PLEASE do share with us.

After reading this fan account I went to read Jung Min's last two messages he left on DSP webby. You may check them out HERE and HERE. After reading them, is it only me or do you also sense that there's something troubling Jung Min?

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FAN ACCOUNT FROM SPECIAL FAN MEETING 2010.06.13
BY: ccfish0322 / BAIDU

original in chinese: ccfish0322 / BAIDU SS501 THREAD
translated into english: happiebb / lovekimhyunjoong.com


the first post of this thread...
dedicated to jung min, who has caused my heart to cry so achingly today,
and also dedicated to our mi-xiu sister...
i really didn't understand anything (from the fan meeting)
what the boys said and all that, i only heard from her on the way back.

the truth is... i really didn't know anything...
anyway~ hyung jun said they'd be making a comeback with their second (full) album.
mal was crying so hard, said he himself has many things and issues that are making him so tired.
kyu jong, too, cried, and appeared to have said something to the other members.
young saeng was his usual cool self, with reddened eyes.
hyun joong wiped away his tears at the beginning part of the (fans') VCR
and he said, '죄송합니다' (really sorry)

the boys all said sorry to everyone,
and also said I Love You's to everyone.

they'd played a video clip today.
perhaps you guys didn't know before, but i'm only a fan of seven months, starting from LLT.
and all this time, i've always felt that i've missed out so much about them over the past five years.

today, there was an edited footage and the members said much in the beginning.
as you all know, although i was there at the frontline,
i don't understand korean, so there's much that i didn't understand.
but the main gist of it was that the boys really really really feel sorry about the 5.01 album.

hyun joong didn't say much, but when he'd said the last 'sorry',
our leader, he wiped away tears~
and i cried for the first time, today.

as for what they'd sung, and also the interaction with the fans,
i shan't be writing much about those.

mal was crying the most today.
jyu jong was the first one to start crying,
and during that time, mal kept his back to us,
but we could see him wiping away tears.
fans kept shouting out to him not to cry,
but but but~ there seems to be much troubling mal today.
wuri mal... he's probably actually really all worn out...

hyung jun too was crying sadly.
when he was talking about kyu jong, even his tone changed~
he seemed to be saying.... if without you, then we're not SS501 no more~

the chief and young saeng were perpetually cool and unperturbed.

when mal was crying, hyung jun went over to hug him~
just like comforting a child, he was comforting mal~

anyway, i feel really sorry i wasn't able to walk with you guys the past five years.
regarding those feelings of waiting and anticipating, i'd only experienced once.
i've often wondered, what sort of willpower and strength could have made the TS persevere and press on,
could have have TS wait (for the boys) with such doggedness.

today, when i was watching (the clip of) leader when they'd won the Rookie Award, i had cried;
and watching mal cry, i'd cried;
and watching how hyung jun was sobbing so much, i'd cried.

you guys said, you'd make comeback with a second album,
and that you'd be together always,
then... if this is the case, then i'm willing to continue with the waiting,
to put up with the feelings of waiting, of anticipating.

have always thought i ain't the type to hold such fanatical thoughts
but just this once, just for one time,
i wanna be that teeny weeny bit fanatical and wild~



一楼
给今天把我的心都哭碎的政玟
给我们家米修姐姐，我真的什么都听不懂
孩子们说了什么，都是回来的路上听她说的

其实我真的不知道些什么
总之~
亨俊说会以二辑回归
大马哭得很伤心，说自己有很多让自己很累的事
奎钟也哭了，好像和成员们说了什么
水爷依旧淡定，眼眶红了
贤重在开场VCR摸了眼泪，他说，真的对不起

孩子们说，各位，对不起，各位，真的爱你们

今天放了一段视频
大家也许不知道，其实，我只饭了孩子们7各月，从LLT开始
一直都觉得，错过了很多关于那五年

今天，剪辑了一段视频，一开始成员们说了很多
大家知道，我是不会韩语的前线，没太听懂
但是抓到重点是，孩子们对五年一辑的事，真的很抱歉

贤重说得不多
但是，说完最后的抱歉
我们大大，抹泪了~
我今天第一次哭了

关于唱了什么，还有饭的互动我都不写了

马儿今天哭得很伤心
奎钟最先开始哭
那时候大马一直背对着我们
但是能看见他抹泪了
饭们一直叫他不要哭
可是~大马今天真的好像有很多是困扰着他
我们的大马，其实，很累吧

亨俊也哭伤心了，在说奎钟的时候，音调都变了~好像在说，没有你~就不是501了~

大大和阿水永远都那么淡定

大马哭的时候，亨俊去抱了他~像安慰个孩子一样~安慰大马~

总之
抱歉没有与你们一起走过这五年
关于那些等待的心情，我只经历过一次
我常常在想，到底是什么样的力量支撑着TS的执着等待

今天看着拿新人讲的小队，我哭了
看着政玟哭，我哭了
看着亨俊泣不成声，我又哭了

你们说，会以二辑回归
会一直在一起
那么
等待的心情
我愿意继续

一直觉得自己不是有着这样疯狂想法的人
只是这一次
有那么点点疯狂~